Revera Disjunctus

Latin phrase for "Disconnected Reality"


The disorder I believe I have is quite similar to Schizophrenia and something called Depersonalization except for one crucial symptom: I live in a distinctly separate yet parallel reality where interactions with the outside world meld into the perceptions of my own reality with no negative consequences. Someone with Depersonalization often struggles with daily interactions and feels disconnected from outward reality, often feeling separate from their own body, resulting in a self conscious alienation from others. Schizophrenia, however, includes hallucinations, perceptions (can be sound, sight, touch, smell, or taste) that occur in the absence of an actual external stimulus (Auditory hallucinations, those of voice or other sounds, are the most common type of hallucinations in schizophrenia.) It also includes catatonic behavior, in which the affected person's body may be rigid and the person may be unresponsive.

I on the other hand feel that the world outside me is merely a distraction from the mostly formed personal reality that I experience in my head. I have no disconnect from my physical body, no social anxiety (I actually feel pity for those too naive to recognize that they live in a false reality), no catatonia and I definitely feel no alienation (no know knows about my condition OR my reality). I don't have Bi-Polar (manic depressive) because I'm been examined by several doctors who haven't found many symptoms; I don't have depressive phases and don't believe that I have special powers or that I'm God's gift to the world).

Here are the symptoms:

-constant denial that certain events have taken place (i.e no recollection of certain things that people claimed to have said)

-appearing to be "in their head" or completely spaced out; unresponsive. Often smiles or frowns for no apparent reason.

-seemingly deaf; will not hear certain phrases or long monologues, often thought to be intentionally selective with statements or opinions expressed by others

-sometimes refers to events and situations that have not actually taken place. Retracts statement with visible embarassment, apologizes for "getting it wrong"

-constantly accuses others of having "ulterior motives," vaguely recognizes that others, if not all people have their own parallel realities and that there could be millions of anterior realities. Except for the secret believe that their own reality is in fact, the TRUE reality. Sometimes nicknamed the "Messiah Complex."

Causes:

-certain kinds of seizure disorders, most often an epileptic disorder called "Temporal Lobe Epilepsy" where the seizures happen in the patients head with no visible side effects

-constant reassurance that they are "special" or "gifted"

-a developed intuition and a deep appreciation for metaphors and symbolism spurred by a lifelong interest in fictional writing and poetry, visual art and deep conversation with others

-external trauma in which the patient attaches a specific meaning or "meant to be" labels i.e. surviving a near fatal car accident

-vivid and sometimes lucid dreaming

Treatment:

-long term counseling; no medication has been known to treat it

a. questioning morals, beliefs
b. drilling the patient on how certain events in real life connect to their own reality
c. inquiring how the patient acquires their perception of self without the outside world

Cure?

No documentation found to prove that the patient has come back to reality. Always insists that the counselor is a distraction and a "test" to the validity of their own reality.