I lost my friends

and found a rabbit hole.

then I went to Japan

in search of secrets.

plum blossom

there were gardens in February.

yellow fever.

when I came back, I was different.

I still listen to the same music, though.

Mostly Elliott Smith.

Sometimes I dream big.

and outgrow things.

but..

I watch marathon Pete & Pete episodes until I get bedsores.

Yeah, stuff seemed crappy for awhile.

I dunno if I'll ever get anything done.

but that's what friends are for..

if I had any.

it is hard when you are different.

Guess I'll keep my hopes up.

like Alice did

in that Wonderlandy book.

uh.

...yep.